If I had gone full term (40 weeks that is), today would have been Ryan & Kaylie's first birthday. Their birthday was 10 weeks ago but in my eyes, they are officially one year olds TODAY. Of course I began to wonder if I will be thinking this same thought each year hereafter. "Today's the day you would have been 2, 3, etc..." When does that insanity stop? That's what it is you know--the life of a preemie mom--the constant focus on well if such and such had happened....or as I have done here many times with pointing out what a date WOULD HAVE BEEN. I surely can't be the only preemie mom who does this. Am I?
Are there any other preemie moms out there who can shed some light on these things for me? Tell me how to get over this stuff already! Does it go away once they are "caught up" (a preemie term I loathe) or will these thoughts be with me forever?
Anyway, Happy 1st "birthday" kids! We won't be having any cake or gifts but it's a date worth noting here...um...I think.