Moments that stick out the most from that day were when I decided to change Ryan's diaper--you know doing one of those motherly things. We had been home for about ten minutes--mind you he was in his cute "coming home" outfit---and he peed over everything--the wall, couch, Pack & play, & clothes! I learned to cover "the goods" with a washcloth from that moment on. I remember being so nervous in the car ride home and telling Bob to not hit any bumps. I remember not being able to sleep because I was so nervous that I jumped up to check on him 100 times. I also remember not being able to sleep because Ryan refused to sleep that first night too! I remember the feeling of how great it was to finally have one of our babies home with us.
Friday, July 11, 2008
A Year Ago Today
Ryan came home from the hospital a year ago today. This is the day that I became a mom. I may have given birth (hmm... I had a c-section..did I give birth? I guess that is debatable, but I like to think I did.) 42 days earlier, but I was finally able to do everything that a "regular" mom could do. I had my baby home with me. I mean I did a few motherly things in the NICU but it's just not the same as having your baby home with you. I always considered the time they spent in the NICU to be gestation time. Sort of like the NICU was one giant womb of some sort. It was hard leaving Kaylie behind in the hospital but one or both of us still went to see her every day. Being able to take your baby home after spending months hooked up to monitors was frightening. Literally up until a few minutes before you take your baby home, they are hooked up. How did I know if he was de-satting or not? I gradually got over that and told myself they wouldn't have let him go if he wasn't ready.